Aunt Carol and Uncle Bob's

Taylor and Jimmy

Taylor and Jimmy

Taylor

Jimmy

Taylor

Jimmy

Taylor and Jimmy

Jimmy Swimming

Jimmy learned to swim under water yesterday so I took a video of my "Little Fish" for all to see. I am so proud of him!!

Forever With Me

Through the death of a loved one, I have opened my eyes to appreciate all the people in my life today, right now. The hardest struggle I face at this time is the pain that comes from a suicide, the guilt of not knowing the person's pain and struggles, not realizing is so hard to deal with. Watching everyone I love crumble at the news, the sadness that envelopes around us, the shock, the never ending grief; it's almost too much to bare. Several months later, I still feel the pain, shock, hurt and even sometimes anger-not at him, at myself for not letting him know how much he meant to me, how much him being in my life meant. I have told him many times the words, but never why or what made me feel the way I do. I said the words like a robot as I was leaving-I'm sorry for that.

Such a gentle soul, not able to deal with all the pressures of the world. I see two children without a father, a baby without a grandpa and a woman without her rock, her best friend, her soul mate. I see family that has lost a huge chunk from one lovely man and friends who will never laugh the way they did when he was around. I never knew how much you could miss hearing someone's voice and how I try to replay some of the things he has said, but each day that voice seems to fade-please don't let me lose that. I was always excited when I saw him, even as an adult, I always loved being around him.

September 15th will forever be a sad day in my life, I hate to think that it's coming up-I dread it. There is so many questions I have that will go unanswered, so many feelings and emotions that I can't express. I love and miss you so much. I wish I could go back and tell you what was on my mind, the real way I felt-I know it wouldn't have changed what happened but at least you would have known.

I have come to realize that everything happens for a reason, every person has a purpose, when their purpose is complete they leave us, I can handle that. What is so hard to understand is what exactly that purpose was and why sometimes it's over so soon. I know he is in a better place where no one can harm him any longer, no one can break his pride. If you didn't know while you were here-you were loved and very special to many people, you were special to me.

I talk to him everyday, I tell my kids about him, he will never be forgotten. Dooley, that is your fault, you consume our lives and I know you are laughing about that now. I know he's around, I feel him and I know everyone else does as well. I am very sad and hurt that he's gone but I am happy for him, I know he's free now, free from this hateful world.

My mind is filled with movies of your Memories, my heart is filled with songs of love-you will forever be alive within me.

Jimmy's Cooking Show

Jimmy was grounded from outside from leaving the backyard with a neighbor child, he was so bored he decided to help me cook. What a laugh, he was talking like the cooking shows Taylor watches, so here is another video of JimBob.

Jimmy Dancing Again

Taylor and I were watching TV yesterday while Jimmy was on the computer on The Disney Channel and he caught our eye dancing to music and I had to take a movie. I hope you all enjoy my little performer.

Update on Jimmy

After 24-hours of fighting the fever, by last night Jimmy was back to his normal self. He really didn't claim to have any symptoms other than saying his tummy hurt one time, but I know that children often associate something not feeling right to their tummy. His poor little eyes just didn't look well, you can definately tell he is sick by looking at his eyes. Just wanted to let everyone know he is back to normal and can't wait to get outside when he finishes school today.

Now Jimmy's Sick

Jimmy was totally fine yesterday morning, did school and was bouncing off the walls; being normal Jimmy. I made pizza for the kids at lunch time and when I called him to come eat he said his tummy hurt and wanted me to save it for him. I went to check on him after I ate and he was curled up, asleep on his bed, so I figured he really must not feel good. He woke up about an hour later and climbed on the couch and announce, "You have a sick little boy!" I went over to the couch to hug on him and he was on fire, burning up with a fever so I got him some Motrin and within 30 minutes he thought he was fine, back to playing and jumping around, I tried my hardest to get him to take it easy but that's easier said than done. He wouldn't eat dinner and I went on a milkshake run last night and he didn't want that either. But 9 o'clock his fever was returning so I gave him more Mortin and took him to bed with me. When he woke up this morning it was the same thing so we are going to see how it goes, but I have a feeling we will be taking a trip to the doctor.

All Better

I woke up this morning with no aching, no pain and all around feeling great! Since last Monday night I have been suffering from a kidney infection and it was horrible, I was down for the count until last Saturday. I was running a very high fever Tuesday, which I have never experienced with a kidney infection before.

Friday was my anniversary and we couldn't even go out. Eric brought me home beautiful roses and a card and cooked steaks out on the grill. He prepared the whole dinner for me and since I was on the couch he brought all the food out and we all (even the kids) ate our steaks and watched Jurassic Park. Jimmy had never seen that movie and he loved it, it was a lot of fun just watching his expressions and reactions to the movie.

Eric and the kids spent Saturday at the pool, I never thought they would come home. I think they were there for about 5 hours. It gave me time to work on my classes and prepare for my test (which I aced with 100%).

The weekend turned out pretty good and we all had a lot of fun together. Last night I had a kid-filled house: Taylor had three friends over and Jimmy had two, but they all stayed in their bedrooms and for the most part were as quiet as could be expected.

Jimmy's Dedication to Uncle Mike

Jimmy found this song and told me it was for Uncle Mike. It's called I Miss You by Hanna Montana.

Jimmy, Vinney and Taylor

Jimmy crashes Monday after his fun-filled few days

Vinney's almost as big as Jimmy

Such a cute picture

Finally got a smile

Taylor in mid-jump

Jimmy and Vinney playing with the birthday ball

Happy Belated Birthday Jimmy

Daddy taking Jimmy's gift out of the box

Cutie Pie

Jimmy's "Beat you up like a chicken" slogan

Nani's decorated gift

Homemade birthday cake

The 6-year-old smiling

From Daddy and Mommy

Gifts from his Nani

Present from Poppa and Nani Celli

I have been meaning to put Jimmy's birthday pictures on but Blogger was giving me problems and then I got sick, but better late than never.

Mom and Vinney got into town last Thursday and just let me say, Vinney is such a big boy and so adorable. The kids were so excited for them to get here and it was pure adrenaline rush when they finally showed up. We all had lunch at Cracker Barrel and then spent the hanging around the house.

Friday, Nani and Daddy took the kids to the pool and the most exciting thing happened - Jimmy started going under water! He had to prove what a big boy he was, six-years-old.

Saturday, the wonderful Birthday of Jimmy the Great. What a wonderful day for him. He woke up to a bunch of wrapped gifts and cards, then off to Birthday Boys requested breakfast of IHOP, where he was treated like a king. When we got home Daddy made a cake for Jimmy while he played with his friends outside and then we all headed to the pool for a few hours - even Vinney got to swim with Auntie Joey and Uncle Eric. We came back for cake and ice cream and ended the evening with a hamburger cookout. He had a great day.

Sunday was Nani and Vinney's last day and was spent outside but it was actually chilly, so Vinney hung out in the house with Uncle Eric a lot. We finished our last night with a movie of Alvin and the Chipmunks. We really enjoyed Nani and Vinney's visit and wish they could have stayed longer. Thank you for making Jimmy's birthday so special.

Happy Birthday, Nick

Happy 20th Birthday, Nick. I wish
you a happy day and a wonderful
year ahead! Love and miss you!

Jimmy Playing Guitar Hero

Jimmy has only played Guitar Hero a couple times but is getting better with each try. He plays with only one finger (his thumb) and actually does a pretty good job. Here is a video of him with the guitar.

Pictures from Last Week

Jimmy was sad in this picture, he wanted to go swimming

Jimmy showing off those beautiful blue eyes

Daddy had Jimmy trapped

He acts like he hates it but the second Eric lets him go he's right back over there so he'll do it again

Eric playing with a cardboard camera

Jimmy was the first to play with it and Daddy just copied him

Taylor and Jimmy lounging

Another lounging picture

Jimmy's Pictures

Jimmy got a hold of my camera and went on a picture takin' spree. I am posting his photos per his request. Enjoy Jimmy's masterpiece!